I'm not dead! I promise! Even if I'm tired enough to feel like I'm dying.
I've just been a little poor lately, all things considering, so between stress and such I haven't had time to even think of drawing.
I think what happened is that I tried to take too much on at one time. It really snowballed on me, to where it was happening all at once. I turned around and summer was over, and I had a Twitter, YouTube account, deviantART, Pintrest, Facebook, not to mention stress at work and now the added pressure of school for the semester, and on top of THAT my faithful readers for fanfiction.net and destinysgateway.com. And on top of even that, a hospital scare with my gallbladder that ended up with me being on medication for the rest of my life.
It was, and still is, a very trying time in my life. And as such, I began to feel the... adverse side effects, if you will, of such a life. My friends and family noticed it, as well, although they had no idea what was causing such changes. I didn't want to be with my friends, or even speak to them a good bit of the time. I would halfheartedly answer texts and personal calls, but I didn't feel--normal, I suppose. I was tired, all the time. There were days I wanted, and did, do nothing but sleep all hours and then get up for work.
My parents began to become worried, but I couldn't explain it to them. I was just literally tired of life. Not to say that I wanted to end my life-no, that was the FURTHEST thing from my mind. It was just that I wished that I had a "pause" button, to pause all my deadlines and get recharged again. I wanted to be a good friend and a good family member, like I used to be. I wanted to feel normal
again. I worried and prayed and slaved away, trying my best to please everyone. And for me, that was way too hard!
But now, I'm getting back to my normal self. My medicine is leveling out and I don't feel (as much) pain as I used to, I am starting to be social again, and while work hasn't slacked off, I'm getting a much-needed vacation to the beach next week. Hopefully everything will work out and I'll come back from my vacation recharged and ready for the days ahead. Or at least I'm praying for that!
So, I haven't been as active on here, or on my other social media sites, as I should. But please, PLEASE bear with me. I promise that I will
get something out to you as soon as I can!
Talk to me!